Lions & tigers & bears…

OH MY!!!

My little Leo (early August baby) Peanut is out of control! This child is crawling like she’s training for the crawling Olympics!! It’s insane. And I wanna give a quick shout out to all of my friends who have been far more supportive of my choice to have Peanut than I gave them credit for. It’s insane how some people you think you will lose when you make a big life change like this, surprise you and step up their friend game – while others unexpectedly bail out on you. It’s been eye opening, but mostly in a good way.

Fuck the tiger king. That’s right. I find it offensive that’s the name of the documentary because a king is a ruler, a royal, a person of status – there is NOTHING extraordinary about the man featured (OR ANY of the people) in that documentary. The obsession with making an icon and therefore giving attention to and proceeds to the trash people that abuse animals and makes lgbt+ people look like predators and drug addicts in this program is disgusting. In a time where we are in a literal pandemic I understand the need for a distraction, but for fucks sake read a God damn book instead of rotting your brains making/watching/discussing/promoting/glorifying this depiction of the lowest form of American trash humans around.

Tigers are beautiful animals that deserve respect.

The bears have reclaimed Yosemite National Park and I could not be happier for them! I love National parks, Reader. You wouldn’t think it, but there is a nature explorer inside this physically damaged tech nerd. Once upon a time I was able to do all the things without my body giving out on me, and I loved hiking, being a first responder, getting down and dirty, sleeping in my truck in nature and waking up to a crispy cold sunrise for a jog… In the before times, before my body gave up on me, I did all the things and I loved it.

I read recently that due to the lack of human presence at the National Parks, it has been reported the wildlife is reclaiming the land – and I couldn’t be happier for them. It is theirs and we as humans are greedy fucks who take over everything, disrupt their homes and their lives, and feel entitled to do so. Out of all things the pandemic has led to, I hope THIS stays the same. They deserve the respect and space that we demand of them. As my old geography professor once said, “I don’t camp or swim in the ocean. I don’t bother sharks and bears in their homes, and in return they don’t come into mine.” It is only fair that we allow other living creatures their right to live the way they were intended to without out intrusion. Perhaps this is Mother Earth’s way of putting us on time out for being horrible children.

Before you call me out as a hypocrite for my prior nature adventures whilst saying we need to stay out of the way, I will add that I hardly ever stayed in National Parks campgrounds, nor did I take up hella space staking up a tent and spreading out like I own the place. I have also never gotten in the way of wildlife. Maybe it is the Native Mexican in me, but I have a deep respect for wildlife and natural land.

What I’m watching: CBS All Access. Okay, I know you don’t want to pay for yet ANOTHER streaming service, but hear me out. If you have a steady income and are saving money working from home (you know, no commute, no purchased lunch), and can swing it, then it’s totally worth it for entertainment – and more importantly in these quarantine times for your sanity! There is: Picard (for you trek nerds), All Rise and The Good Fight (for my fellow law nerds), and lighthearted comedies like Neighbors and Bob Hearts Abishola. Plus lots more – Something for everyone!

Tech specs: I know I have dedicated this section to the Motorola Z4 & Z family in general in the past, but I was to focus on Moto mods. I have the Motorola Z4 (and in fact, this entire blog post and pics featured, was written and were taken on the Z4) with the 360 camera mod, the projector mod, the JBL mod, and the Polaroid instant printer mod. So check this out – the best part about these mods is that most of them are CHEAPER than these accessories with the added bonus of no extra wires and Bluetooth connections etc etc.

Now, the 360 mod is cool but I have yet to find a reason to use it.

The JBL speaker is a great buy! You get your Bluetooth speaker without having to do more than just plug and play! IDK about you but I get annoyed with a finicky Bluetooth connection and just want shit to be simple, so for the simplicity this mod is worth it.

The Polaroid instant printer is not for everyone, and I totally get that. But as a new parent to a tiny human, I want tangible photos of Peanut! I have a hybrid digital instant camera but with this mod, that’s EXACTLY what this phone becomes PLUS so many editing options thanks to the many many Android apps available.

Lastly the projector mod. I know, right, when are you going to use this? Well check it out – we are in quarantine. And as you may have read in my last post, we need to find ways to keep our brains and our hearts active – and this is one of the ways we do it at my house. Peanut and I have started a Disney movie night with movies projected onto the walls directly from Disney+ on my Motorola Z4 with this handy Moto mod. It’s different and fun!

Finally your favorite part of the blog…

Doggy pics: playroom shenanigans!

perspective. patience. purpose.

People who suffers from PTSD are prone to problematic patterns when placed in positions of perilous predicaments such as a pandemic. My method of survival is perspective, patience, and purpose.

When you suffer from any sort of mental health condition (and even when you don’t!) you have to be hyper vigilant and self aware when faced with high stress situations so that you can find ways to self-soothe. It is easy to go down the rabbit hole of anxiety, paranoia, and depression; So you need to do something to regain perspective and maintain your sanity. Spending time at home should not be looked at like a punishment. Your home should be your safe space, and you should be your own best friend. Learn to be alone with yourself – Silence and solitude can be comforting; even enjoyable. It’s all about perspective.

Many of the people I’ve talked to seem to be struggling a great deal with quarantine. I make a conscious choice every day to look at the situation positively. I stop and think about what I can do to make each day enjoyable. I plan my day and my time with Peanut. I make up projects for us – The organization factor makes it feel more like an event and less like just being at home. I choose to take this time to make memories instead of misery. And I don’t spend money to do things; I don’t have money to waste. We have dance parties in the living room with twinkling white lights from Christmas; we have movie nights; we FaceTime with friends. Today we laid on a blanket under the fan on high and pretended it’s a beach day with Coldplay playing on the boom box. Little simple plans.

It’s easy to fall into feelings of despair. Life is chaotic and stressful on its own, so when you add a pandemic, it magnifies the intensity of any negative feelings. It’s hard to see beyond the fog of the current terrible situation, and sometimes we need to be reminded to keep going. One of my favorite quotes is from a limited series (highly underrated), called Political Animals:

So that’s what I do, Reader. I keep going. And I want you to keep going. And I know it requires patience – which some of us lack. But I’m hopelessly hopeful (as is tattooed on my arm).

A great way to keep perspective is to have purpose. My purpose is Peanut.

What is your purpose? What keeps you going? You don’t need to have a tiny human. Maybe it’s your fur babies, or your goals to change the world, your bff, your mom, your goal to someday play Carnegie hall… Nothing is too great or too small.

Five little things I’m grateful for today: 1) that when I fell I only sprained my wrist and elbow and didn’t break anything; 2) Peanut is being super chill while I write this; 3) that it’s been hardcore raining (I LOVE the rain!!); 4) homemade chocolate chip cookies a friend dropped off; 5) Coldplay – Peanut and I are relaxing to some mellow Coldplay songs.

What to watch: Political Animals starring Sigourney Weaver. It was a limited time series but really fucking amazing. Although I am bias because I am a huge fan of hers but it is very smart and well written.

Pup pics: rainy days laziness and snuggles