Lions & tigers & bears…

OH MY!!!

My little Leo (early August baby) Peanut is out of control! This child is crawling like she’s training for the crawling Olympics!! It’s insane. And I wanna give a quick shout out to all of my friends who have been far more supportive of my choice to have Peanut than I gave them credit for. It’s insane how some people you think you will lose when you make a big life change like this, surprise you and step up their friend game – while others unexpectedly bail out on you. It’s been eye opening, but mostly in a good way.

Fuck the tiger king. That’s right. I find it offensive that’s the name of the documentary because a king is a ruler, a royal, a person of status – there is NOTHING extraordinary about the man featured (OR ANY of the people) in that documentary. The obsession with making an icon and therefore giving attention to and proceeds to the trash people that abuse animals and makes lgbt+ people look like predators and drug addicts in this program is disgusting. In a time where we are in a literal pandemic I understand the need for a distraction, but for fucks sake read a God damn book instead of rotting your brains making/watching/discussing/promoting/glorifying this depiction of the lowest form of American trash humans around.

Tigers are beautiful animals that deserve respect.

The bears have reclaimed Yosemite National Park and I could not be happier for them! I love National parks, Reader. You wouldn’t think it, but there is a nature explorer inside this physically damaged tech nerd. Once upon a time I was able to do all the things without my body giving out on me, and I loved hiking, being a first responder, getting down and dirty, sleeping in my truck in nature and waking up to a crispy cold sunrise for a jog… In the before times, before my body gave up on me, I did all the things and I loved it.

I read recently that due to the lack of human presence at the National Parks, it has been reported the wildlife is reclaiming the land – and I couldn’t be happier for them. It is theirs and we as humans are greedy fucks who take over everything, disrupt their homes and their lives, and feel entitled to do so. Out of all things the pandemic has led to, I hope THIS stays the same. They deserve the respect and space that we demand of them. As my old geography professor once said, “I don’t camp or swim in the ocean. I don’t bother sharks and bears in their homes, and in return they don’t come into mine.” It is only fair that we allow other living creatures their right to live the way they were intended to without out intrusion. Perhaps this is Mother Earth’s way of putting us on time out for being horrible children.

Before you call me out as a hypocrite for my prior nature adventures whilst saying we need to stay out of the way, I will add that I hardly ever stayed in National Parks campgrounds, nor did I take up hella space staking up a tent and spreading out like I own the place. I have also never gotten in the way of wildlife. Maybe it is the Native Mexican in me, but I have a deep respect for wildlife and natural land.

What I’m watching: CBS All Access. Okay, I know you don’t want to pay for yet ANOTHER streaming service, but hear me out. If you have a steady income and are saving money working from home (you know, no commute, no purchased lunch), and can swing it, then it’s totally worth it for entertainment – and more importantly in these quarantine times for your sanity! There is: Picard (for you trek nerds), All Rise and The Good Fight (for my fellow law nerds), and lighthearted comedies like Neighbors and Bob Hearts Abishola. Plus lots more – Something for everyone!

Tech specs: I know I have dedicated this section to the Motorola Z4 & Z family in general in the past, but I was to focus on Moto mods. I have the Motorola Z4 (and in fact, this entire blog post and pics featured, was written and were taken on the Z4) with the 360 camera mod, the projector mod, the JBL mod, and the Polaroid instant printer mod. So check this out – the best part about these mods is that most of them are CHEAPER than these accessories with the added bonus of no extra wires and Bluetooth connections etc etc.

Now, the 360 mod is cool but I have yet to find a reason to use it.

The JBL speaker is a great buy! You get your Bluetooth speaker without having to do more than just plug and play! IDK about you but I get annoyed with a finicky Bluetooth connection and just want shit to be simple, so for the simplicity this mod is worth it.

The Polaroid instant printer is not for everyone, and I totally get that. But as a new parent to a tiny human, I want tangible photos of Peanut! I have a hybrid digital instant camera but with this mod, that’s EXACTLY what this phone becomes PLUS so many editing options thanks to the many many Android apps available.

Lastly the projector mod. I know, right, when are you going to use this? Well check it out – we are in quarantine. And as you may have read in my last post, we need to find ways to keep our brains and our hearts active – and this is one of the ways we do it at my house. Peanut and I have started a Disney movie night with movies projected onto the walls directly from Disney+ on my Motorola Z4 with this handy Moto mod. It’s different and fun!

Finally your favorite part of the blog…

Doggy pics: playroom shenanigans!

counterfeit crooks cause chaos

Yes, Reader, you read that right – I was scammed with counterfeit money. As part of a way to make some extra cash for myself and tiny Peanut, I fix laptops and cell phones. I refurbish, fix or replace the housing, and so forth. I leave items looking CLEAN! So, as one does, I posted a laptop onto the apps to sell locally. I was contacted by a man who wanted to meet immediately for purchase. Upon his arrival, he checked out the laptop and said he only had large bills and needed change – and Reader, my dumbass gave him change to his fifty dollar bill. When he left something simply didn’t sit well; both his demeanor and the condition of the money felt off. I went across the street to a bank and asked they check the bills – informing them of the situation so they knew I did not come up with these bills on my own. It was CONFIRMED – FAKE MONEY! This man gave me fake fifties and hundred dollar bills. Worse of all, I gave him CHANGE! Three ten dollar bills (which may not seem like a lot, but that’s almost a month’s worth of formula or diapers for baby Peanut!).

Needless to say, I have been extremely down and defeated today. I called the police and filed a report, and they took the fake money, so there isn’t much else that can be done. The time consuming refurbishing of the laptop including replacing the battery and power cord, are now all at my person expense; and by extension at baby Peanut’s expense. I am very disappointed in myself and embarrassed that I let it happen. So learn the hard lesson from me, if you also sell items regularly through smartphone apps such as LetGo, OfferUp, invest in a counterfeit marker to check bills before accepting them.

What I’m watching: Love is Blind on Netflix. Singles talk through a stained glass wall in a sort of speed dating format – only able to talk to get to know each other with no physical appearance involved. Sounds fine, right? Well, then these lunatics get engaged BEFORE ever laying eyes on each other. It’s a Netflix original “real human experiment” aka reality show trying to be fancy by using different verbiage. It’s interesting, but definitely one step away to trashy The Bachelor status.

Tech specs: Get a fucking money pen. The counterfeit dual detector gives you TWO ways to verify money (paper bills) is real. Necessary for anyone who often works with cash. $10 for three pens, will save you hours of work, hours of the PD looking at you like a moron, and hours of a headache.

Random thought of the day: they finally ran out of the salt for the salted caramel mocha frapuccino at my Starbucks. Le sigh… I’m too bummed to give you more than that random thought…

words that start with the letter F…

Fears of failure frequently feel like foreshadowing of fucking up my family and fur babies.

I have a confession, I still have a hard time calling Peanut my daughter and I feel weird when people call me a mother. Often, this entire thing feels like the sweetest dream that I will wake up from at any moment. When I’m away from her, I have brief moments of doubt; is she real? Is this really my life right now? I was so used to disappointment and heartbreak that I don’t know what to do with this immense happiness sometimes. Professionally, I’ve been harassed and defeated; and had dreams of an alternative profession crushed by people I should have been able to trust as mentors. Romantically, I have been disheartened and defeated. So I never expected I would get what I’ve always wanted: a family of fur babies and fun little tiny human. There’s this cute Peanut human baby who loves me and is my family! How did I get so lucky? It overwhelms me with joy, but it also overwhelms me with fear of failing her and losing my little family.


The next F word on my mind is friends; what that means and looks like. Friending as an adult is hard. Being an adult is lonely when you don’t have a partner or even a best friend who is your person, but all your friends do. Don’t get me wrong, I am insanely lucky to have a good group of awesome friends, BUT they all have their person; their ride or die. And I’m pretty sure it’s not me. I don’t think anyone considers me their best fiend; their person. Many times I thought I had found my person but I was soul crushingly wrong… But I still hope…


For fucks sake freaking shake it off!! That’s right, I am yelling at myself in my own blog. Told you this would be a wild/weird ride… So other much happier things to report: Peanut is amazing! She’s rambling a ton and squirming around like the little sixth month old that she is. Her personality grows with each day and it’s so cool to get to watch. She is also beginning to build an adorable bond with Charles. My little man Charles, the terrier mix, is turning into a great big brother. He watches Peanut closely and protects her; cuddling with her feet and sleeping with her during naps time.


What I’m watching: in case you didn’t get the clue above, Grey’s Anatomy. We are now in the 16th season and it’s been a bumpy ride. I have seen all of the seasons and up to the current episodes and have stuck by the good, the bad, and the ugly… I screamed at the tv when Izzy recovered from stage 4 brain cancer (since it happened after my Lori had died of stage 4 cancer)… I briefly lost faith in love when they killed off Derek… but I remain a loyal watcher. Even when it is bad, I have gotten to the point of this parasocial relationship where I can’t abandon Meredith (Ellen Pompeo). Don’t judge me. Lol.


Tech specs: I’m getting back into the swing of things with house projects. There’s much to be done with my back yard, front yard and office. One thing I have always been terrible at is using the damn tape measure on long distances by myself – enter the Stanley 30 Pocket Laser Distance Measure. This thing is AMAZING. Extremely tiny, pocket sized, usb rechargeable, laser measure. I have been using this little guy all month and it makes taking measurements a breeze – such a time saver!


Random thoughts: I try not to be political or super religious on this blog because I want everyone to feel welcomed and included in my journey. I want you in my life even if we don’t agree on everything – it’s important to be friends with and try to understand people who’s truths are different than mine. But with that being said, I will share my personal sentiment on the current democratic race for the primaries – simply for pragmatic reasons, there are some front runners that are a bad choice. It’s just the simple truth that die hard fans of those people refuse to see. [Sigh]. I’m exhausted just thinking about it.


Doggy pic of the week: Professor Walter looking extremely handsome while helping me measure and clean the back yard.